Friday, May 1, 2009
Don't Leave Me Alone!
I thrive on change, If my life isn't constantly moving forward; growing and evolving I feel stuck and stagnant. I like to keep things in a perpetual forward motion. In this moment I am feeling like we have stopped moving. Granted the last 5 years have held lots of big things for us and I have grown accustomed to expecting radical changes to feel satisfied. We can't have a graduation, wedding and new house every year though so I am going to have to find a new level of acceptance.
I find Fridays to be a restless day because Jon never knows how late he will be home on those days from work. Some weeks it is 10 pm and others it is as early as 6. I find I spend the whole evening hoping for his imminent arrival and as the minutes tick by I can never find anything to occupy myself.
Tonight I cured both predicaments with one swift motion...of my scissors. I always swear after the fact that I will never cut my own hair again. This time though I am surprisingly satisfied with my new look and I can style and restyle my great new bangs until Jon comes home...whenever that will be!