Thursday, April 1, 2010

A Sad Narcissist

There are two kinds of people; those who keep a blog and those who do not.

I obviously am the first. To fall into this category, that is to keep a public blog specifically means you also identify with a higher than average degree of narcissistic tendencies. You must feel the need to not only record your every thought but to also assume that others are hanging off your every word and think you are as witty as you do.

But then....there is a day of reckoning for every blogger. A sad day where the blinders come off and you have to accept a reality that you have tried to fight, change and deny. It is like that pair of jeans you thought your butt looked super hot in only to later see pictures of Aunt Rose's 80th birthday and have to accept that the woman in the saggy Mom jeans is you...

I feel that time has come with the ol blog.

for three years I have written on average three posts a week so as not to disappoint a (soon to be) loyal fan base...when they begin to flock in droves to the witty, insightful and creative zone known as JJandB (what is the B for you may ask? It started as Bayley...then became Ben...now it stands for Boys!). But I fear my popularity level is not nearly what I had hoped. There are two signs you are a popular blogger...one- your "followers" are overflowing and your "comments" section requires you to book time in the afternoon just to be able to get through them all.
Some popular blogs I read have followers in the thousands and comments in the hundreds. Sob.

I have ten followers.
I get virtually no comments.

ARE YOU OUT THERE????

Please if you are...let me know.

If I don't know you... that would make me even happier...it would mean someone told you about me or that you stumbled across this site accidentally and...stayed!!!
it would make my day...add a little skip to my step...

If I write something that makes you think, or feel or laugh, tell me! Did I say something way out of left field...too many cliches? My grammar is atrocious... I know, but would love to be reminded. Did you totally disagree with something I said? Did I potentially offend you mistakenly...please click on comment and tell me where to go, it will make my day, seriously.

Am I like an American Idol hopeful, who practiced for weeks, dreamed the dream for years and then got blasted on national television and made a fool of with horrible off key writing and tone deaf prose? Are people wondering, like I am as I watch these people humiliate themselves with their perceived talent where on earth their loved ones were to tell them before appearing on the show..."remember when we told you you were awesome? Well really we meant in every other way but this one!". Say it ain't so!


Jon says this post was pathetic.

yup.

please follow... please comment...

16 comments:

katie said...

I love reading your blog...you have such a great way of writing...it's like I'm right beside you telling me your story. I love it. Now I know my comment doesn't count since you know me...but let's just pretend you don't - then I can say that I made your day! I so wish I could have a blog...but my writing would be so terrible and boring I would just give up. You have a gift, share it.

Kim Hughes said...

Hey Jenn,

Like Delilah and John Tash, I'm listening!

Keep up the great blogging.

gailprice1 said...

Hi Jenny,
It's your mother...better known as Grammie these days and at times Jing Jing. Your blog has been a free ride for many of us, reading it every day,concerned if you haven't posted in a while but always amazed at your writing. I hear from so many how much they love you and your blog so good for you for telling us what you need in return. I also hear some say they would like to leave a comment but they don't know how to or they leave a comment and it doesn't appear. Perhaps you might want to explain how to leave a comment. My only other comment is ...more pictures please!!
xo

Sarah said...

Hey Jen, I feel the same way.. I think the only person that reads my blog is my step mom in law...
But I read your blog and its posted on mine so Im sure my mom in law reads yours occassionally
:)

Kristie said...

Hi Jenn, You are a great blogger and I think you are so talented at writing. I wish I had a gift like that. I wanted to post a comment a long time ago but when I tried it said I needed to have a Blogger account! But now I guess I can post a comment with my google account... I should start up a Blog called Adventures of Bayley & me. I'm not sure how many follwers I would have though! Although Bayley is my little baby boy who is just the cutest little puppy, I am not sure if others think he is so cute especially since he hasnt had a haircut since Sept 2009! Yikes!! Anyways, Happy Easter to you and your beautiful family! Love Kristie

Heather said...

I think you know I read always. I so know this feeling. :)

Vee said...

you know that i read, too! :)

Devry and Chelsey Hymas said...

I read your blog! All the time!! Sometimes I feel the same way about my blog, but then I remember, it is my way of keeping a journal, so at the very least its for me. I even order by blog for the year in a hardcover book.
Either way, keep it up! You will treasure the small moments you posted about your boys. We all will!

Jane said...

I READ, I READ, I READ!!! And I check everyday to see if you have posted, and then wonder where you have been if you havn't posted for a week. Keep it up Jen! You are a great writer. I am pretty sure only my family and a few mom's with kids with Ds read my blog. When I first started (oh like a whole 3 months ago) I thought I could make my blog BIG and make LOTS OF MONEY! But who was I fooling. My blog is for me, and it is my way of documenting my life with my crazy husband and kids. If people don't read, that's okay, because I DO and it makes me happy. We love you Jen!!

Christine McKinnon said...

I read your blog! You're a really good writer. I will make more of an effort to comment :)

Jen said...

Ummmmm....yeah...I'm one of those random people that you don't know. Refered from prg.org

I enjoy your writing and the fact that you're at the same stage of life as me, with similar values.

Keep it up!

Jenn said...

You know that I read your blog, check it every morning at work...along with a few others. I start my day with you! I must admit though, I never comment...hardly even on Facebook. I'll try to be better, because I know it is important to you and though I do not keep on a blog( and dont count on one starting) I too love to see comments on FB when I add pics! So, here is my comment...I love you, and those darn cute boys. I read everyday, and call you once its been a few without a post. Keep writing, it's a gift.
love you

Jamiesjourney said...

I always read too Jenn :) I love reading others mom's experiences and watching the boys grow. I only comment occassionaly...but I check out your page a couple times a week for updates!

Eileen Price and Richard Weed said...

We love reading your daily blog. You are a gifted blogger and story teller. In fact, we read your acupucturist story to our friends and they said that you would give Irma Bombeck a challenge for raising children srories. Please keep the blogs coming. Love Aunt Eileen and Dick

Jill said...

Hi Jenn! :)

I'm another one of those randoms who came across your blog somehow (though not sure how) and has it on my RSS feeder for regular reading! I do love reading it, but I know I don't comment, but thought I would let you know how much I enjoy :)

Cheers
Jill

Kristin said...

Well I read it, and I don't know you other than through your blog and preg.org. I really enjoy your writing! I don't get a chance to read every day, but I try to keep up. I would be sad if you stopped blogging (or taking those great pictures)

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